Pain - a learning experience

So following up on from my last post, I finished Zine 7 as planned. I worked really hard at it and sent it off to the printers without allowing myself too much tweaking. I’m stuck with the final version, little mistakes and all. Phew.

And it was a “happy” ending I think. A resolution.

Whatever the possible symbolic implications, maybe just a bizarre coincidence, on my way back from a nice trip away my tooth exploded into a little fireball of pain. So much so that I had to go straight to the dentist. I have struggled in the past to identify my needs and deal with them, so my marching round there and crying over the reception desk was a good step forward, wasn’t it???

I’m trying to stay positive with this whole experience of dealing with variable, out of the blue episodes of mind blowing pain.

After emergency dental treatment I have used strong pain killers, anti inflammatories, frozen peas, heat pads, pacing and rocking, to deal with the pain. I have had an episode of crying like a broken little child, and some angry episodes, finally today, some calm breathing.

I’m not there yet. It is settling although so exhausting to deal with.

Trying to see the positives, some good things:

sharing with others about pain, turns out lots of other people have had tooth stuff. This  pain is not caused by anything terrible, just needs sorting out. So it has been a good learning experience and a way of connecting with others.