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Fibromyalgia? A good thing?
I am hard at work at the moment trying to reach a deadline in May. I want to finish Zine 7 before I go away for a few days at the end of...

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May 52 min read
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Death comes to us all
How do you say goodbye to someone you havent seen for around 30 years? Who you loved / adored as a small child but as a young adult, that...

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Mar 192 min read
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Margery Gill
I loved the book “A little Princess ” by Frances Hodgson Burnett when I was younger. Margery Gill illustrated the copy I read. I looked...

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Mar 72 min read
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Steps Forward
I see myself moving forward all the time. But it doesn’t mean that life gets suddenly easy and smooth. If anything life can get more...

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Feb 272 min read
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Birthday review
Boxing helped. I thought it would be a good idea to do a review of my birthday, at least I can reread it prior to next year. Overall, it...

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Feb 172 min read
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Pillbox bunker
I have a birthday coming up and as ever, I struggle with this. So much so that in my blanking out of birthdays I failed to ring one of my...

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Feb 72 min read
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Fear in the night vs "crazy fighting"
I was woken by the sound of my husband knocking over a glass which smashed, in the bathroom last night. I realised what had happened, it...

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Jan 192 min read
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2024 Review
Lots of steps forward over the year, downgrading my fears into more childlike forms. 1) Fear of not being good enough Learning to be less...

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Jan 52 min read
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Holidays, good or bad, discuss.
It’s been a long time since my last post as I’ve been away, the other side of the world in New Zealand. I’ve had a week of jet lag but am...

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Nov 28, 20242 min read
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Parallel life if the "big bang" never happened
I’ve been finding lots of alternatives to use when I wake up with a strong fear or difficult emotion. I recently reexperienced my...

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Sep 15, 20241 min read
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Printing, parallels and metaphors
I’ve been busy doing some printing, we are going away fairly soon and creating my xmas cards is a job that I would rather not have on our...

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Sep 6, 20242 min read
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Reflections after the visit and other things
Well it actually went very well, the family visit. And I have to give myself a big pat on the back for that because the difference was...

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Aug 31, 20242 min read
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Just being an ordinary person,
with quite a lot of the answers worked out, but not all of them, and that’s ok. I have now had over a week of a huge step forward. I’m...

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Aug 9, 20241 min read
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Epiphanies, revelations, emotions
This week has been a roller coaster of emotions. I have made huge leaps forward, experienced happiness and contentment that I thought...

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Aug 2, 20242 min read
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Fear
I’ve been reading a couple of interesting books on fear. Gift of Fear by Gavin de Becker Embracing Fear by Thom Rutledge. I was looking...

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Jul 25, 20242 min read
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A good week
I had an email in my inbox this week from Sarah Woodhouse( https://sarahwoodhouse.com/about-me/) Those of us with relational trauma often...

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Nov 25, 20232 min read
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Ok, I'm getting good and messy with the printing
So I had a good day starting to get stuck in. Just getting my hands dirty again. And in a huge life parallel, there is so much internal...

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May 21, 20232 min read
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A celebration but also goodbye
So as I finish my zine on my Dad, I thought I would include some pictures of me and my Dad when I was little. Here he is cuddling me in...

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Apr 29, 20232 min read
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The body keeps the score
I’ve mentioned the book “The Body Keeps the Score” by Bessel Van der Kolk before, about how the body displays outward manifestations of...

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Apr 16, 20233 min read
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Rewiring faulty circuits
I recently was sent an email from Sarah Woodhouse https://sarahwoodhouse.com who is a trauma specialist and psychologist. She was...

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Mar 9, 20232 min read
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