Ch-ch-changes

The gorgeous Midland Hotel, just don't look too closely

David Bowie’s song is running through my head.

Life is never fixed. We stand by the riverbank and water flows by. The water is constantly changing.

The ground is constantly shifting beneath our feet although we long for consistency and the the security of fixed walls and floors.

I said some goodbyes yesterday and solidly closed some doors. I went back to my the place of my childhood and it was long gone. The past is another country. I scattered some ash in the sea but it was of ashes of my memories and past, the person I thought I was saying goodbye to wasn’t there at all. Instead I said goodbye to my 4 year old self and her sadnesses but also a fond goodbye to my Gran. I had been out of the country when she died, in my 30’s so it was nice to say a proper goodbye to her. We had lunch at her favourite hotel, the Midland Hotel on the promenade. It is a lovely art deco building but could do with a lot of fresh paint and repair.

So what is changing in my life?

I finished my art degree a while back but I need to get on with finishing my last zine, but then that door will close.

The community magazine I have edited for 12 years is folding due to one of the other editors wanting to stop. So that regular time commitment will disappear.

My children are all growing up and moving on.

My husband is talking about retiring properly.

So I’ve been thinking about how I would like to move forward.

Artwise my list is:

Finish my last Zine and then think what I do with them. The LDC (formerly Ladeez Do Comics)  is a good forum for that.

Update my website so that it fits more closely with me (rather than how I did it for my degree)

Explore printing further

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