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spillustrate
Feb 72 min read
Pillbox bunker
I have a birthday coming up and as ever, I struggle with this. So much so that in my blanking out of birthdays I failed to ring one of my...
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spillustrate
Jan 192 min read
Fear in the night vs "crazy fighting"
I was woken by the sound of my husband knocking over a glass which smashed, in the bathroom last night. I realised what had happened, it...
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spillustrate
Jan 52 min read
2024 Review
Lots of steps forward over the year, downgrading my fears into more childlike forms. 1) Fear of not being good enough Learning to be less...
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spillustrate
Sep 15, 20241 min read
Parallel life if the "big bang" never happened
I’ve been finding lots of alternatives to use when I wake up with a strong fear or difficult emotion. I recently reexperienced my...
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spillustrate
Sep 6, 20242 min read
Printing, parallels and metaphors
I’ve been busy doing some printing, we are going away fairly soon and creating my xmas cards is a job that I would rather not have on our...
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spillustrate
Aug 31, 20242 min read
Reflections after the visit and other things
Well it actually went very well, the family visit. And I have to give myself a big pat on the back for that because the difference was...
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spillustrate
Aug 9, 20241 min read
Just being an ordinary person,
with quite a lot of the answers worked out, but not all of them, and that’s ok. I have now had over a week of a huge step forward. I’m...
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spillustrate
Aug 2, 20242 min read
Epiphanies, revelations, emotions
This week has been a roller coaster of emotions. I have made huge leaps forward, experienced happiness and contentment that I thought...
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spillustrate
Jul 25, 20242 min read
Fear
I’ve been reading a couple of interesting books on fear. Gift of Fear by Gavin de Becker Embracing Fear by Thom Rutledge. I was looking...
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spillustrate
Mar 5, 20243 min read
It's all in the head or on the head?
(I meant to post this last week but got caught up in other stuff and forgot, better late than never) It makes me laugh that I happily...
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spillustrate
Feb 13, 20243 min read
Birthdays, good or bad?
So Pema also says......LOl, I’m quoting her left, right and centre at the moment!! But she is very helpful!! As my readers may or may not...
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spillustrate
Jan 22, 20242 min read
Shifting and changing
I always want to start my posts by saying “well what a funny old week”, so obviously EVERY week is a funny old week. According to Pema...
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spillustrate
Jan 2, 20242 min read
Notes on Xmas
So how has this year gone?(I need to reread this in the run up next year.) I think I was RELATIVELY peaceful in the run up. I remember...
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spillustrate
Dec 11, 20232 min read
Cello group
I have been working on my next zine. It is all about mothering, as experienced by myself and my mother with her mother. Just looking into...
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spillustrate
May 21, 20232 min read
Ok, I'm getting good and messy with the printing
So I had a good day starting to get stuck in. Just getting my hands dirty again. And in a huge life parallel, there is so much internal...
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spillustrate
Apr 29, 20232 min read
A celebration but also goodbye
So as I finish my zine on my Dad, I thought I would include some pictures of me and my Dad when I was little. Here he is cuddling me in...
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spillustrate
Apr 16, 20233 min read
The body keeps the score
I’ve mentioned the book “The Body Keeps the Score” by Bessel Van der Kolk before, about how the body displays outward manifestations of...
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spillustrate
Apr 9, 20231 min read
Update on Zine 5
Before we get to onto the Zine, I had my first proper cello lesson. My husband was away with the car so I had to make my own way there...
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spillustrate
Mar 9, 20232 min read
Rewiring faulty circuits
I recently was sent an email from Sarah Woodhouse https://sarahwoodhouse.com who is a trauma specialist and psychologist. She was...
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spillustrate
Jan 29, 20232 min read
Working on Zine 5
I’m back at work at Zine 5 now. It is slow progress, slowly whittling away at the pages, putting things together and then fiddling around...
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