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- Sep 22
- 2 min
Anxiety when good things happen
So we were successful with our bids for the piano! We visited it and I played it, tried lots of others too. My piano tuner had told me I...
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spillustrate
- Aug 25
- 2 min
Visit from someone who triggers me
I have written before about a member of my husband’s family who triggers me regarding abuse as a child. (Here) Well would you believe...
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- Aug 21
- 2 min
Big news!
Big news for me at least, I’ve sent Zine 4 to the printers ready to be printed off! I knew there was only a tiny bit of tweaking to do, I...
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- Jun 24
- 3 min
Signed up for a course!
I posted a few weeks ago about what I might do in the future and then an email dropped into my account with a newsletter from LDComics....
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spillustrate
- May 27
- 1 min
Working on Zine 4
Quite apart from real life problems, I’ve been working on Zine 4 and it has brought up lots of pesky emotions which just get in the way!...
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spillustrate
- May 13
- 2 min
Still with the health stuff
A weird, full on week, overall. In the last 10 days I have seen 5 different medics for 3 different issues! Having not seen any doctors...
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spillustrate
- Apr 14
- 1 min
Landmark moment
I’m really winding things up this end, so nearly at the finishing posts for my course… I’ve just sent the final copies of Zines 1, 2 and...
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spillustrate
- Mar 18
- 2 min
Loneliness
A follow up to last week is that I had to put a ban on myself getting fixated on an issue which I had no control over, no say in and...
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spillustrate
- Mar 10
- 2 min
Loyalty and confusion and knowing you're right
What do you do when you feel very angry about someone’s behaviour and everyone around you insists that you are the difficult one and they...
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spillustrate
- Mar 4
- 2 min
A good book on Emotional Neglect
I’m going to add a book list to my blog as I’ve been reading a new book that has been really helpful. I’ve struggled to find books that...
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spillustrate
- Feb 27
- 2 min
Family Visit
often dread people coming to visit. I’m such an extreme introvert that it is a struggle having people invade my safe space with their...
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spillustrate
- Feb 19
- 2 min
Being an artist and complex-PTSD
I had a blog post half prepared and then I met up with an artist friend and I thought I would write about that. We always cover a wide...
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spillustrate
- Feb 4
- 2 min
Preparing for my birthday
It has been a hard week this week. Since being much more aware of my feelings and emotions I have to deal with stuff rather than block it...
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spillustrate
- Dec 16, 2021
- 2 min
Family and Reality
A really ironic thing happened yesterday, my father, from whom I have been estranged for the past 30 years, sent me an email with his...
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spillustrate
- Dec 10, 2021
- 2 min
Pre Christmas meltdown
It’s been a funny old week as I had my annual pre christmas meltdown. The good news is that I used to have this in October so early...
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spillustrate
- Sep 30, 2021
- 2 min
Mixed Feedback, some good, some not so good
It’s been an interesting couple of weeks, I sent a draft version of my zine (The Big Bang) out to various people to get some feedback on...
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- Sep 24, 2021
- 3 min
Working on Hyper Vigilance
I’ve been reading a really good book recently. “The body keeps the score: Mind, brain and body in the transformation of Trauma” by Bessel...
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- Sep 9, 2021
- 2 min
Working on Zine 2, feelings resurface but a snuggly sweater can help
I had a clear narrative for this zine….and then I started work on it. I have a weird working process of going backwards. (I guess that is...
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spillustrate
- Aug 27, 2021
- 2 min
Complex trauma or C-PTSD
I’ve been reading some interesting stuff in the last couple of weeks. I’m interested in blogs that talk about dealing with mood swings...
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spillustrate
- Jul 9, 2021
- 3 min
Coincidence or weird synchronicity
So here I am doing my Friday post! My last piece of coursework was to construct a timeline of how you got to your creative position. The...
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