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Fibromyalgia? A good thing?
I am hard at work at the moment trying to reach a deadline in May. I want to finish Zine 7 before I go away for a few days at the end of...

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May 52 min read


Ch-ch-changes
The gorgeous Midland Hotel, just don't look too closely David Bowie’s song is running through my head. Life is never fixed. We stand by...

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Mar 252 min read


Death comes to us all
How do you say goodbye to someone you havent seen for around 30 years? Who you loved / adored as a small child but as a young adult, that...

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Mar 192 min read


Margery Gill
I loved the book “A little Princess ” by Frances Hodgson Burnett when I was younger. Margery Gill illustrated the copy I read. I looked...

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Mar 72 min read


Steps Forward
I see myself moving forward all the time. But it doesn’t mean that life gets suddenly easy and smooth. If anything life can get more...

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Feb 272 min read


Pillbox bunker
I have a birthday coming up and as ever, I struggle with this. So much so that in my blanking out of birthdays I failed to ring one of my...

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Feb 72 min read


Fear in the night vs "crazy fighting"
I was woken by the sound of my husband knocking over a glass which smashed, in the bathroom last night. I realised what had happened, it...

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Jan 192 min read


2024 Review
Lots of steps forward over the year, downgrading my fears into more childlike forms. 1) Fear of not being good enough Learning to be less...

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Jan 52 min read


Parallel life if the "big bang" never happened
I’ve been finding lots of alternatives to use when I wake up with a strong fear or difficult emotion. I recently reexperienced my...

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Sep 15, 20241 min read


Printing, parallels and metaphors
I’ve been busy doing some printing, we are going away fairly soon and creating my xmas cards is a job that I would rather not have on our...

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Sep 6, 20242 min read


Reflections after the visit and other things
Well it actually went very well, the family visit. And I have to give myself a big pat on the back for that because the difference was...

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Aug 31, 20242 min read


Just being an ordinary person,
with quite a lot of the answers worked out, but not all of them, and that’s ok. I have now had over a week of a huge step forward. I’m...

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Aug 9, 20241 min read


Epiphanies, revelations, emotions
This week has been a roller coaster of emotions. I have made huge leaps forward, experienced happiness and contentment that I thought...

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Aug 2, 20242 min read


Fear
I’ve been reading a couple of interesting books on fear. Gift of Fear by Gavin de Becker Embracing Fear by Thom Rutledge. I was looking...

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Jul 25, 20242 min read


It's all in the head or on the head?
(I meant to post this last week but got caught up in other stuff and forgot, better late than never) It makes me laugh that I happily...

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Mar 5, 20243 min read


Birthdays, good or bad?
So Pema also says......LOl, I’m quoting her left, right and centre at the moment!! But she is very helpful!! As my readers may or may not...

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Feb 13, 20243 min read


Shifting and changing
I always want to start my posts by saying “well what a funny old week”, so obviously EVERY week is a funny old week. According to Pema...

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Jan 22, 20242 min read


Notes on Xmas
So how has this year gone?(I need to reread this in the run up next year.) I think I was RELATIVELY peaceful in the run up. I remember...

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Jan 2, 20242 min read


Cello group
I have been working on my next zine. It is all about mothering, as experienced by myself and my mother with her mother. Just looking into...

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Dec 11, 20232 min read


Ok, I'm getting good and messy with the printing
So I had a good day starting to get stuck in. Just getting my hands dirty again. And in a huge life parallel, there is so much internal...

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May 21, 20232 min read