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A celebration but also goodbye
So as I finish my zine on my Dad, I thought I would include some pictures of me and my Dad when I was little. Here he is cuddling me in...

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Apr 29, 20232 min read
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The body keeps the score
I’ve mentioned the book “The Body Keeps the Score” by Bessel Van der Kolk before, about how the body displays outward manifestations of...

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Apr 16, 20233 min read
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Update on Zine 5
Before we get to onto the Zine, I had my first proper cello lesson. My husband was away with the car so I had to make my own way there...

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Apr 9, 20231 min read
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Rewiring faulty circuits
I recently was sent an email from Sarah Woodhouse https://sarahwoodhouse.com who is a trauma specialist and psychologist. She was...

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Mar 9, 20232 min read
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Working on Zine 5
I’m back at work at Zine 5 now. It is slow progress, slowly whittling away at the pages, putting things together and then fiddling around...

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Jan 29, 20232 min read
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Pre Christmas busyness
Family wise as the children grow up into adults and form their own families, their needs change and the traditions shift, get shuffled...

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Dec 22, 20222 min read
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Still trying to catch up with topics...
Firstly, COVID. Yes I’m still below par, but slowly improving. I had a “boom and bust” last week where I did my usual exercise classes...

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Nov 3, 20222 min read
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Anxiety when good things happen
So we were successful with our bids for the piano! We visited it and I played it, tried lots of others too. My piano tuner had told me I...

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Sep 22, 20222 min read
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Visit from someone who triggers me
I have written before about a member of my husband’s family who triggers me regarding abuse as a child. (Here) Well would you believe...

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Aug 25, 20222 min read
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Big news!
Big news for me at least, I’ve sent Zine 4 to the printers ready to be printed off! I knew there was only a tiny bit of tweaking to do, I...

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Aug 21, 20222 min read
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Signed up for a course!
I posted a few weeks ago about what I might do in the future and then an email dropped into my account with a newsletter from LDComics....

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Jun 24, 20223 min read
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Working on Zine 4
Quite apart from real life problems, I’ve been working on Zine 4 and it has brought up lots of pesky emotions which just get in the way!...

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May 27, 20221 min read
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Still with the health stuff
A weird, full on week, overall. In the last 10 days I have seen 5 different medics for 3 different issues! Having not seen any doctors...

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May 13, 20222 min read
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Landmark moment
I’m really winding things up this end, so nearly at the finishing posts for my course… I’ve just sent the final copies of Zines 1, 2 and...

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Apr 14, 20221 min read
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Loneliness
A follow up to last week is that I had to put a ban on myself getting fixated on an issue which I had no control over, no say in and...

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Mar 18, 20222 min read
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Loyalty and confusion and knowing you're right
What do you do when you feel very angry about someone’s behaviour and everyone around you insists that you are the difficult one and they...

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Mar 10, 20222 min read
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A good book on Emotional Neglect
I’m going to add a book list to my blog as I’ve been reading a new book that has been really helpful. I’ve struggled to find books that...

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Mar 4, 20222 min read
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Family Visit
often dread people coming to visit. I’m such an extreme introvert that it is a struggle having people invade my safe space with their...

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Feb 27, 20222 min read
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Being an artist and complex-PTSD
I had a blog post half prepared and then I met up with an artist friend and I thought I would write about that. We always cover a wide...

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Feb 19, 20222 min read
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Preparing for my birthday
It has been a hard week this week. Since being much more aware of my feelings and emotions I have to deal with stuff rather than block it...

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Feb 4, 20222 min read
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