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Vulnerability hangover
So I handed in (via the internet) my penultimate Assignment and instead of feeling relief and lightness, I plunged into a 2 day (and...

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Apr 1, 20222 min read


Pride
I’ve been thinking about pride a lot this week. Of course pride can be a good thing but I think I notice about myself that pride is a big...

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Mar 26, 20222 min read


Being an artist and complex-PTSD
I had a blog post half prepared and then I met up with an artist friend and I thought I would write about that. We always cover a wide...

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Feb 19, 20222 min read


Spillustrate Team
Since I set up my website a while ago, my work has been evolving as I continue with my coursework and I’ve been having a major rethink...

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Feb 11, 20222 min read


I'm back, plus Fear
That was a tough week. I’m so self conscious, making an audio tape presentation to hand in for my coursework was a killer. Not to mention...

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Jan 29, 20222 min read


Giving and Receiving
[Before I get onto the main post, my migraines follow a familiar pattern, the week after I have recurrent minor episodes of nausea and...

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Jan 13, 20223 min read


Family and Reality
A really ironic thing happened yesterday, my father, from whom I have been estranged for the past 30 years, sent me an email with his...

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Dec 16, 20212 min read


Updates and procrastinations
page of visual diary from a few years ago I’ve had a quiet week, my Moderna booster was on Tuesday and like so many people I had 48 hours...

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Dec 3, 20212 min read


Report back on Thought Bubble
An interesting table at Thought bubble Well, overall the Thought Bubble experience was a bit of an anticlimax. Firstly, I think because...

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Nov 18, 20212 min read


Feedback versus Criticism
I have always struggled with feedback / criticism. I have said before on my blog that in an ideal world I would prefer to play a piece...

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Nov 11, 20212 min read


Excited or anxious?
The cat helping with the printing last week, they find the press so comfy. My mood has been cycling recently round and round in an...

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Nov 5, 20212 min read


Mixed Feedback, some good, some not so good
It’s been an interesting couple of weeks, I sent a draft version of my zine (The Big Bang) out to various people to get some feedback on...

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Sep 30, 20212 min read


Working on Zine 2, feelings resurface but a snuggly sweater can help
I had a clear narrative for this zine….and then I started work on it. I have a weird working process of going backwards. (I guess that is...

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Sep 9, 20212 min read


Out of the woods?
I’ve been feeling so tired recently which I am sure has been brought on by seeing so many people. We have a big family and with lockdown...

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Jul 29, 20211 min read


My "fortune telling" cards
So these are my “fortune telling” cards, now finished. I made 16 cards to remind me of all the ways I like to work. Sometimes when I’m...

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Jul 22, 20211 min read


Perfectionism
I’ve talked before about perfectionism, I thought I’d dealt with it but just recently it has come back to bite me on the bum again! I‘ve...

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Jul 15, 20211 min read


Book launch or maybe not!
My current coursework requires that I create a project plan, deciding on a marketing strategy and mapping out my proposed timeline for my...

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Jul 2, 20212 min read


Going through a big creative transition
I’m in a funny place at the moment. You go through life thinking the ground is solid beneath your feet and you know where you are and...

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Jun 14, 20212 min read


Artistic "journey"
It is such a cliche to talk about “journeys” in a narrative but in having to look back over my last course modules I really wonder if...

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May 11, 20212 min read


Walking and talking
After over a year of not seeing my very good friend and fellow artist (this is just one string to her bow, ceramics at...

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Apr 2, 20211 min read


