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So what have I learned about pain?
It was a tough 10 days before it settled. My tooth / jaw pain is much better, not 100% resolved, still I get episodes, sadly triggered by...

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Jun 301 min read
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Steps Forward
I see myself moving forward all the time. But it doesn’t mean that life gets suddenly easy and smooth. If anything life can get more...

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Feb 272 min read
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Birthday review
Boxing helped. I thought it would be a good idea to do a review of my birthday, at least I can reread it prior to next year. Overall, it...

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Feb 172 min read
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Fear in the night vs "crazy fighting"
I was woken by the sound of my husband knocking over a glass which smashed, in the bathroom last night. I realised what had happened, it...

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Jan 192 min read
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2024 Review
Lots of steps forward over the year, downgrading my fears into more childlike forms. 1) Fear of not being good enough Learning to be less...

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Jan 52 min read
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Printing, parallels and metaphors
I’ve been busy doing some printing, we are going away fairly soon and creating my xmas cards is a job that I would rather not have on our...

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Sep 6, 20242 min read
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Epiphanies, revelations, emotions
This week has been a roller coaster of emotions. I have made huge leaps forward, experienced happiness and contentment that I thought...

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Aug 2, 20242 min read
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It's all in the head or on the head?
(I meant to post this last week but got caught up in other stuff and forgot, better late than never) It makes me laugh that I happily...

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Mar 5, 20243 min read
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Me agonising around stuff turns out to be a waste of time
I have already written one post for this week but events keep changing and I keep adding and rewriting and so now I’m starting again with...

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Feb 26, 20232 min read
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Box Fit
The big clear out makes me think about getting rid of stuff in general. I like Marie Kondo’s ideas and in the past read a book on Swedish...

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Jan 20, 20232 min read
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Anxiety when good things happen
So we were successful with our bids for the piano! We visited it and I played it, tried lots of others too. My piano tuner had told me I...

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Sep 22, 20222 min read
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Working on Zine 4
Quite apart from real life problems, I’ve been working on Zine 4 and it has brought up lots of pesky emotions which just get in the way!...

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May 27, 20221 min read
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Loyalty and confusion and knowing you're right
What do you do when you feel very angry about someone’s behaviour and everyone around you insists that you are the difficult one and they...

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Mar 10, 20222 min read
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Working on Zine 2, feelings resurface but a snuggly sweater can help
I had a clear narrative for this zine….and then I started work on it. I have a weird working process of going backwards. (I guess that is...

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Sep 9, 20212 min read
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Complex trauma or C-PTSD
I’ve been reading some interesting stuff in the last couple of weeks. I’m interested in blogs that talk about dealing with mood swings...

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Aug 27, 20212 min read
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Anger / energy, reports and feedback
I’m full of anger at the moment. There are a couple of triggers which can set it off (criticism of my recent vegetarianism, the...

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Aug 5, 20212 min read
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