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spillustrate
Feb 72 min read
Pillbox bunker
I have a birthday coming up and as ever, I struggle with this. So much so that in my blanking out of birthdays I failed to ring one of my...
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spillustrate
Jan 192 min read
Fear in the night vs "crazy fighting"
I was woken by the sound of my husband knocking over a glass which smashed, in the bathroom last night. I realised what had happened, it...
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spillustrate
Jan 52 min read
2024 Review
Lots of steps forward over the year, downgrading my fears into more childlike forms. 1) Fear of not being good enough Learning to be less...
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spillustrate
Sep 15, 20241 min read
Parallel life if the "big bang" never happened
I’ve been finding lots of alternatives to use when I wake up with a strong fear or difficult emotion. I recently reexperienced my...
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spillustrate
Sep 6, 20242 min read
Printing, parallels and metaphors
I’ve been busy doing some printing, we are going away fairly soon and creating my xmas cards is a job that I would rather not have on our...
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spillustrate
Aug 31, 20242 min read
Reflections after the visit and other things
Well it actually went very well, the family visit. And I have to give myself a big pat on the back for that because the difference was...
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spillustrate
Aug 9, 20241 min read
Just being an ordinary person,
with quite a lot of the answers worked out, but not all of them, and that’s ok. I have now had over a week of a huge step forward. I’m...
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spillustrate
Aug 2, 20242 min read
Epiphanies, revelations, emotions
This week has been a roller coaster of emotions. I have made huge leaps forward, experienced happiness and contentment that I thought...
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spillustrate
Jul 25, 20242 min read
Fear
I’ve been reading a couple of interesting books on fear. Gift of Fear by Gavin de Becker Embracing Fear by Thom Rutledge. I was looking...
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spillustrate
Jan 2, 20242 min read
Notes on Xmas
So how has this year gone?(I need to reread this in the run up next year.) I think I was RELATIVELY peaceful in the run up. I remember...
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spillustrate
Nov 25, 20232 min read
A good week
I had an email in my inbox this week from Sarah Woodhouse( https://sarahwoodhouse.com/about-me/) Those of us with relational trauma often...
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spillustrate
May 21, 20232 min read
Ok, I'm getting good and messy with the printing
So I had a good day starting to get stuck in. Just getting my hands dirty again. And in a huge life parallel, there is so much internal...
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spillustrate
Apr 16, 20233 min read
The body keeps the score
I’ve mentioned the book “The Body Keeps the Score” by Bessel Van der Kolk before, about how the body displays outward manifestations of...
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spillustrate
Apr 2, 20232 min read
Cello and horses
Busy old week with two very different enterprises. So a few weeks ago I had mentioned my continuing preoccupation about the cello. The...
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spillustrate
Mar 9, 20232 min read
Rewiring faulty circuits
I recently was sent an email from Sarah Woodhouse https://sarahwoodhouse.com who is a trauma specialist and psychologist. She was...
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spillustrate
Feb 11, 20231 min read
Having the opposite reaction to good things.
It’s that time of year again, my second worst day after Xmas, birthday time! Sometimes I find just being me is so....tiresome! I’d like...
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spillustrate
Jan 20, 20232 min read
Box Fit
The big clear out makes me think about getting rid of stuff in general. I like Marie Kondo’s ideas and in the past read a book on Swedish...
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spillustrate
Jun 24, 20223 min read
Signed up for a course!
I posted a few weeks ago about what I might do in the future and then an email dropped into my account with a newsletter from LDComics....
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spillustrate
May 27, 20221 min read
Working on Zine 4
Quite apart from real life problems, I’ve been working on Zine 4 and it has brought up lots of pesky emotions which just get in the way!...
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spillustrate
Mar 18, 20222 min read
Loneliness
A follow up to last week is that I had to put a ban on myself getting fixated on an issue which I had no control over, no say in and...
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