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Fibromyalgia? A good thing?
I am hard at work at the moment trying to reach a deadline in May. I want to finish Zine 7 before I go away for a few days at the end of...

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May 52 min read
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Steps Forward
I see myself moving forward all the time. But it doesn’t mean that life gets suddenly easy and smooth. If anything life can get more...

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Feb 272 min read
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Parallel life if the "big bang" never happened
I’ve been finding lots of alternatives to use when I wake up with a strong fear or difficult emotion. I recently reexperienced my...

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Sep 15, 20241 min read
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Printing, parallels and metaphors
I’ve been busy doing some printing, we are going away fairly soon and creating my xmas cards is a job that I would rather not have on our...

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Sep 6, 20242 min read
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Just being an ordinary person,
with quite a lot of the answers worked out, but not all of them, and that’s ok. I have now had over a week of a huge step forward. I’m...

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Aug 9, 20241 min read
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Epiphanies, revelations, emotions
This week has been a roller coaster of emotions. I have made huge leaps forward, experienced happiness and contentment that I thought...

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Aug 2, 20242 min read
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Fear
I’ve been reading a couple of interesting books on fear. Gift of Fear by Gavin de Becker Embracing Fear by Thom Rutledge. I was looking...

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Jul 25, 20242 min read
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Quick sand avoided
Last weekend was an intense family visit, full on. And do you know what, I didn’t do badly! Actually as a team, my husband and I did ok...

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Feb 23, 20242 min read
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Birthdays, good or bad?
So Pema also says......LOl, I’m quoting her left, right and centre at the moment!! But she is very helpful!! As my readers may or may not...

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Feb 13, 20243 min read
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Notes on Xmas
So how has this year gone?(I need to reread this in the run up next year.) I think I was RELATIVELY peaceful in the run up. I remember...

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Jan 2, 20242 min read
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Cello group
I have been working on my next zine. It is all about mothering, as experienced by myself and my mother with her mother. Just looking into...

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Dec 11, 20232 min read
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Being liked
I always find the run up to Christmas challenging but it also gets easier each year. I used to have a melt down every October at the...

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Dec 3, 20232 min read
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A good week
I had an email in my inbox this week from Sarah Woodhouse( https://sarahwoodhouse.com/about-me/) Those of us with relational trauma often...

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Nov 25, 20232 min read
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Family weekend and not blogging
I’ve found it a struggle to blog recently, maybe I need to unpick that a bit, not necessarily this post. One thing I do know, I...

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Nov 17, 20233 min read
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Meeting up with a friend and thinking about clothes
I’m still adjusting to being me. I’ve revisited Pema Chodron’s book as I tend to find whatever bit I start reading is often helpful. So...

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Sep 3, 20232 min read
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Talk the talk or Walk the Walk
So I’m now relaxing after our family visit. Overall I think it went well. After “outing” myself as neurodiverse we had our first full on...

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Aug 28, 20232 min read
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Happy Families
Over the weekend I outed myself to some more of the extended family as neurodiverse which has been the right thing to do but it makes me...

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Aug 21, 20231 min read
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Thumb and second person
I was listening to a vlog today where someone was recommending a book called Chatter by Ethan Kross. I haven’t read it but the vlogger...

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Jun 26, 20232 min read
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Ok, I'm getting good and messy with the printing
So I had a good day starting to get stuck in. Just getting my hands dirty again. And in a huge life parallel, there is so much internal...

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May 21, 20232 min read
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Cello and horses
Busy old week with two very different enterprises. So a few weeks ago I had mentioned my continuing preoccupation about the cello. The...

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Apr 2, 20232 min read
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